Definition:
[proper noun] pronunciation: M-eye Prin-sess
AKA - Debbie

she is -
in a single word - dynamic, constantly evolving, brightly-shining, a central component of my cognizant well being...
"okay, maybe that's like 11 words..." <- remember, everything in pink is a link to something else. ;o)


i.e. - "tell me like I'm a 3 year old" - in everyday words:
She is one of those rare people that you thank God she has even entered your life because of her caring nature, heartfelt compassion, radiant beauty, strong determination, masked vulnerability, warmth-inspiring smile, quick wit, relentless stubborness, constantly developing confidence, and a google (it's a real number... look it up) of other attributes becoming royalty... (even when she snorts while she laughs)

or...

to "just say it" - that is, if you can "handle the truth" - I love her because: "and then the cake fell..."
Sometimes, things (people too) fall... but, that's when you know how much they really matter to you. That's when you've got to decide to "pick it up" or not...

Sure, it might be easier to pretend it didn't happen or just get another one or to try a bit and then give up because the task seems overwhelming... or don't try because of fear, stubbornness, or pride. However, I believe that's the defining moment of "true love"... that's when you gotta go "all in"... when you understand what that "one thing" is in your life and you fight like hell to make it right - to make yourself "complete"... It's when you know that no matter where she goes... "I will find you". I know now that "you can't help who you love".

The Real Message
"It's all fun until someone gets shot in the leg!"
I am so regretful for my responsibility in this place and time in our life... I respect your hesitation (maybe unwillingness) and I understand and share your fear of us reverting back to that mess that was our life 3 years ago. It's a very real thing for you (for me) to feel that way.

You are right that I "controlled" everything. I understand that was wrong because it was telling you that you had "all you can handle with your little spoon" when in fact you are the strongest person I have ever met. I was just trying to protect you. I find it ironic that it was me I was protecting you from...

If you are as closed off or shut down as you've said, then I know it's hard for you (and thus for me) to realize a proper course of action... However, I might not have the intellectual or verbal competency to communicate my rationale but rather I "just know" that you are my "soulmate", my "one love", my "lucy"... I want to be your "A.J." and check out "the view from the cheap seats" in your life... I know that I am a "Man" who "loves a Woman" and that I may act like "Michael" but like him, "Alice" is all he could ever want. It is true that you "make me want to be a better man" when I am with you.

I, in my heart, know that you do deserve a second chance... I can only hope that you will decide that I (that we) do too... I have to believe "that it can't be harder to be together than it is to stay apart." I don't want or need anyone else... I am "100%, prime-time, off-the market". I am simply "standing here", hoping you will see me.